Getting back in shape.
Again. Last year at this
time I was at the heaviest I had ever been. 2011 was a shitty year and I ate my feelings, smooshing away
the grief I felt over losing mom.
I didn’t care. I ate and
ate and ate, half knowing that after the new year I would go on Weight Watchers
and get back into shape. And
that’s what happened. I think that
the highest amount I lost this year was 40 pounds. It didn’t stick, not all of it; I gained back about half of
that when I tired of the program and not feeling like I could eat…well, anything. But what really made me happy was just getting off that
unnatural grief weight. I am happy
that I started exercising AND kept exercising. Now it is part of the routine of life, I do it several times
a week and it feels so good.
I am
happy that I feel like I found my natural weight too. It may not be “skinny”, or the weight I was when I was 25,
or what the charts say I’m “supposed” to weigh, but it’s what my body naturally
goes back to every time. After I
go off every diet, after I lose all the baby weight after birth, this is the
weight my body bounces back to.
I’m not going to fight it anymore; I’m happy with the number, how I
look, and the feeling I have –so good for me! I think what I’m going to do this time, instead of a diet or
Weight Watchers, I'm just going to eat healthily and exercise. I’m pretty much doing that anyway so it’s not big stretch,
AND it’s better for my psyche, and better for my kids to see their mama eating
good food like it’s no big deal.
Brennan and I ran a 5k last summer! |
Going to the YMCA.
I am a huge fan of the Y.
At first we were going to the Bellevue YMCA and it was pretty good. The facilities were pretty good, but
the childcare was only so so. I
didn’t know it at the time, but the Northshore Y in Bothell is so much
better! We went there this summer
when the Bellevue facility was shut for yearly maintenance for the week. We never went back to the Bellevue
Y. The Northshore children’s area
is SO GOOD! They have so many
caring teachers in the child’s area, just milling around, playing with the
kids, doing crafts with them—the other place only had one mean lady and Megan
hated it there. Now both kids look
forward to going and I love it because they do, and I can get a break and
exercise while the kids get their goof out.
Megan and Finn running around the YMCA in their Halloween costumes |
Getting my tattoo!
This design was on my mom’s shoulder and last January Sherri and I each
got one of our own. Sherri’s is on
her calf and mine is on my wrist.
I love my fairy butterfly lady, and each time I see it I think of my
mom.
Right after I got my tattoo--it's still a little swollen |
Megan starting preschool! She loves it!
Now, it started out a little rough, what with there being rules that
Megan didn’t understand, and new teachers to enforce those rules—so time outs
were had….but I think she’s found her stride. She loves the class, her little friends, the crafts she
makes, the little songs they learn.
I’m happy because she is happy.
Hawaii! How
could I not be happy about going to Hawaii for a week in June? It was fabulous! We relaxed, we played, we did sand and
surf-type things, we bonded as a family, and we created some lovely
memories. My favorite moments were
sitting in our living room after the kids went to bed and talking with Brennan,
my dad and sister Sherri. It was
terrific.
Don't I look relaxed? |
Having my dad over for dinner once a week. We have made it a habit to have my dad
come over on Wednesday evenings and share a meal. The kids love having their grandpa to play with and I love
the company and the help. We eat
dinner and after the kids go to bed, Brennan, dad and I have a super good, deep
talk. It refreshes my outlook on
life every single week! And on
that same note, I’m so happy that my dad and I have developed such a good
relationship. It was good before
mom died, but it was different.
Mom was always the focus.
Now that’s she’s gone, dad and I have done some good bonding. So that’s nice.
Me and Dad |
Having all kinds of wonderful help from my sister Sherri. She is the most selfless person I know, and I don't think I'd make it from week to week without her love and support.
Sherri LOVES Finn and Megan so much! She's a great aunt |
Writing. I am
happy that I started this blog. I
sort of hid out from it during the holidays, but I’m back. I want to keep writing at least once a
week. It’s been a real pleasure to
share parts of myself on here. I
have also been happy about developing (but not yet writing) a new story. I think this year I’m going to find
more time to write it out.
Spending another year with my love—Brennan O’Reilly. He is my family and my best
friend. We have raised us up some
good kids, created multiple blessings, some amazing feats of abundance, and
we’ve somehow managed, in the end, to do so with good humor. I love him.
What an amazing family! |